Okay, yet another trouble in my world. Yay.
So there's this guy, i wont name names because if he stumbles in on this blogger and knows it's him, and doens't feel the same way, i like i mght die of embarrasment.
He is an amazing man, and I care alot about him. We first were introduced by a mutual friend, and as our talking went on, I found I had become quite attached to him. Now, this is not a normal thing for me, I am not usually one to get attached so easily to people, so I started thinking, and I found that i cared for him, more than a friend was supost to. I had a crush.
Now I'm not saying that it's the end of the world or anything i've had crushes before and they've come and gone but for some reason i can't get this one out of my head, and it scary sometimes how i'll be laying in bed wondering if he will coem online or not.
Now, this isn't one of those "he lives in germany" things, he lives in the same city as I do, but we've just never gotten around to meeting face to face, and it never seems like the right time to ask him.
I donno, i think i'm officially fucked in the head and I seriously need to start sleeping.
3:26am and all i can do is post on blogger? yup, i deffinatly need to do soemthing baout my sleeping habbits.
Cynthia-Mae
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Cyn,
Read the note and felt as if a small seed coming out of the shell, out of earth, with its light green tender head and a neck bend down shyly, making it all the more likable.
Cyn, Just wanted to tell you, do what you feel right and never do what you don't. And when you do something, whether you like or you don't, never resent yourself. It was something you had to do and you did and it can be a learning for you, but never a resentment. Learn and move on.
Take care.
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